Really, I just went a bought some books. In hindsight I realised that I can justify this by saying it's my patriotic duty, because I haven't worked right through my stimulus yet.

I got:
Endless Universe. I think it would count as 'popular physics'?
Toll The Hounds. Fantasy, very excited it is out, but won't read it for a while yet as I want to do all the series once it's out. Big long books, they are awesomely good.
The Brief Wondrous Life Of Oscar Wao. Just fiction. Sounds interesting.
Little Brother. Also a novel.

Now I need to not buy books for a while because I am running out of space to park books I haven't read yet.

My mood is really crap. I think I've been leaning towards crap for a while now. Quite probably that is work related. And what really freaked me out was that, a couple of weeks ago, I woke up. The only coherent thought around that point was 'I think I am having a panic attack'. I am not a panic attack type, so the attack itself was strangely calm. That doesn't make sense... but my thoughts were calm, I just had the whole sweaty heart racing thing going on, no apparent reason (I was asleep!), so rode it out while wondering why on earth it was happening. Work was real shit at the time, so I guess that was it.

Also contributing, I think I am going to need some minor surgery. Worst case is that I have cancer, and that would piss me off more than depress me. Best case will be minimum 4 more appointments. I measure things in number of appointments these days. Last night, Mum asked 'How did your appointment go?', and I had to explain to her that that kind of question is meaningless to me without narrowing things down a little.

All of the above aside, I think my mood is just crap.